Thoughts and Memories: A retrospective
It's been a tough year. Things have been sometimes chaotic, sometimes full of pain, sometimes stressfull and other times numb, for a lack of a better world. This can be evidenced by the RS Blog feeds I have posted from BlogSpot. Somedays I wake up and wonder: Why me? I try to walk the good path. I try always to do what is right, to help others, to be the best person I can possibly be. Why is it that I suffer so much? Is it because I'm over-sensitive (is there such a thing???)? Is it because I have not yet learned the fine art of letting go? Is it because I want to suffer? or maybe a concantination of many things. In any case, the point is I feel things more intensely than most other people I know and as a result, Someimes i get overwhelmed with things that most can shrug off.
I am quiet, shy and introspective, more of a listener and observer when with a group of people. I grew up on a farm and miss the wide open spaces, clean air and the animals. I crave the wide open spaces, fresh air, peace and quiet. I am a sensitive, caring, compassionate, intelligent, independent, honest and articulate (usually) person. I help others less fortunate than myself. I possess a unique sense of humor, which most people find funny. My Son and I frequently draw laughs from people when they hear us. I have varied interests (from Astronomy to Zoology) and wish I had more time to devote to pursuing them. I see the world differently than most and love to get into philosophical discussions. I am one of the most accepting people I know. I do not judge people, but rather try to accept them as they are.
I have a depth that mostly goes unrealized or ignored by others. I'm am frequently judged by appearance and found lacking. I guess Eclectic would best describe me. I am passionate about being true to myself and being original. I'm not one to follow a crowd unless it's something I really want to do. I have two dogs, Miniature American Eskimos, that were rescued from abusive homes. I'm a geek and am currently studying for my MCSE Security while working full time. I have a 16 year old son for whom I am the sole support, and always have been. We don't see eye-to-eye on everything, but that's to be expected. I have tried to raise him to be an individual - independent, self-sufficient, rational, kind and compassionate. To some extent I’ve succeeded, but still have a ways to go. He can be the source of my greatest joy, my deepest despair and my most painful anguish. It's all part of raising children. You take the good with the bad. I am one of the simplest people I know, yet one of the most complex.
With all that, why is it that my inner circle is so empty?
I am quiet, shy and introspective, more of a listener and observer when with a group of people. I grew up on a farm and miss the wide open spaces, clean air and the animals. I crave the wide open spaces, fresh air, peace and quiet. I am a sensitive, caring, compassionate, intelligent, independent, honest and articulate (usually) person. I help others less fortunate than myself. I possess a unique sense of humor, which most people find funny. My Son and I frequently draw laughs from people when they hear us. I have varied interests (from Astronomy to Zoology) and wish I had more time to devote to pursuing them. I see the world differently than most and love to get into philosophical discussions. I am one of the most accepting people I know. I do not judge people, but rather try to accept them as they are.
I have a depth that mostly goes unrealized or ignored by others. I'm am frequently judged by appearance and found lacking. I guess Eclectic would best describe me. I am passionate about being true to myself and being original. I'm not one to follow a crowd unless it's something I really want to do. I have two dogs, Miniature American Eskimos, that were rescued from abusive homes. I'm a geek and am currently studying for my MCSE Security while working full time. I have a 16 year old son for whom I am the sole support, and always have been. We don't see eye-to-eye on everything, but that's to be expected. I have tried to raise him to be an individual - independent, self-sufficient, rational, kind and compassionate. To some extent I’ve succeeded, but still have a ways to go. He can be the source of my greatest joy, my deepest despair and my most painful anguish. It's all part of raising children. You take the good with the bad. I am one of the simplest people I know, yet one of the most complex.
With all that, why is it that my inner circle is so empty?
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